romans

to me, this isn't a more powerful book in the entire Bible. as i was reading through yesterday and today (on a good day where i actually took the time to dig into the Word the way that I want to) i found myself constantly confronted with truths that, in honestly, i probably didn't want to be confronted with.

it's so easy for me to judge people. and i pride myself on not being a racist or a biggot, but i can easily pick apart the ideas, thoughts and actions of my brothers and sisters in Christ. why is that? it probably boils down to the same thing it always boils down to: insecurity.

this all got me thinking....how does one really change his ways? how does one really surrender all that he's known in 24 years of living and make a turn toward something Godly or something that pleases God? as i sat on my porch, the temperature already raising towards 80 degrees and the sun's warmth burning into my face, i strived to make that change....a mini-revolution right there while sitting on a cheap wal-mart lawn chair.

of course, i've always been weary of stating my intentions for a personal spiritual revolution. i'm more of the "do it, don't say it" mentality." so maybe you should just forget about that last paragraph.

i need to love more. to love without hesitation, premeditation, pre-conceived notions. i need to let go of everything that i think is dear and just show love. i want to strive to serve others until i don't have the strength to stand. i want to bite my tongue when i don't need to speak....censor my thoughts when the enemy launches one of his patented mental attacks.

i don't know. i'm really just thinking out loud here. i don't have much else for now. peace to you all.