another seven months passed
I really thought I was going to get into the blogging again when I picked it up last October. But apparently, my attention span has waned over the years. You get me in bursts, if at all, and for that I apologize.
I'm not really sure who wrote those last few entries. They feel foreign to me. I remember that place in time...when I ached for something that was trivial. But the sun has set on those days. Sure, I still long for things which cannnot be attained, but I laugh now at the sincerity I felt in late December and early January for things and people that have little relevance in my life now. I guess this is how life progresses.
Now I am doing ok. Still battling a sense of disconnect to certain people and places that where once vital to my existence. I miss things as I often do yet I feel incapable of making the efforts needed to get to where I need to be. I have once again started to spin my wheels with thoughts of furthering my education. I am not sure the shape or form that such an adventure would possess. I will probably lean towards the on-line learning which is something that I've come to respect immensely in the past few years. There are also a few institutions in this town where I might feel at home. I don't yet know what I am going to do but the itch has started again and I don't know if I'm going to be able (or if I want) to ignore it this time.
Personally speaking, life has taken a strange turn as of late. A visitor has come to stay with us in a great time of need. I am not sure how else to say it and I won't really get into here. Suffice it to say it has been one of the most interesting summers of my life. For better or worse.
I will try to explain more later. For now, please know that this is some kind of effort to rekindle the flame of the written word that once burned in my soul. I do not know if that candle still exists and if it does, I cannot say what shape or form it now takes. But I will try to find it again, if only to purge the thoughts that constantly roam the empty hallways of my head.
I'm not really sure who wrote those last few entries. They feel foreign to me. I remember that place in time...when I ached for something that was trivial. But the sun has set on those days. Sure, I still long for things which cannnot be attained, but I laugh now at the sincerity I felt in late December and early January for things and people that have little relevance in my life now. I guess this is how life progresses.
Now I am doing ok. Still battling a sense of disconnect to certain people and places that where once vital to my existence. I miss things as I often do yet I feel incapable of making the efforts needed to get to where I need to be. I have once again started to spin my wheels with thoughts of furthering my education. I am not sure the shape or form that such an adventure would possess. I will probably lean towards the on-line learning which is something that I've come to respect immensely in the past few years. There are also a few institutions in this town where I might feel at home. I don't yet know what I am going to do but the itch has started again and I don't know if I'm going to be able (or if I want) to ignore it this time.
Personally speaking, life has taken a strange turn as of late. A visitor has come to stay with us in a great time of need. I am not sure how else to say it and I won't really get into here. Suffice it to say it has been one of the most interesting summers of my life. For better or worse.
I will try to explain more later. For now, please know that this is some kind of effort to rekindle the flame of the written word that once burned in my soul. I do not know if that candle still exists and if it does, I cannot say what shape or form it now takes. But I will try to find it again, if only to purge the thoughts that constantly roam the empty hallways of my head.
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