two paragraphs (titled after writing)

just random thoughts....

what triggers our emotions? what are those things that cause us to lose all sense of time and space? i've often wondered why in my life i've been more moved by a song or movie than anything else-- is it a sad state to be in? i don't know. some would say it's sad but i never thought it that way. i'm sitting here at the computer just reeling over some tunes and i feel like my heart is bleeding. how does this happen? do we just transpose lyrics or scenes atop our own life? our own existence? or worse, do we create scense and scenarios in real life based on what we've heard seen or read in the past? and by we, i do mean "me". i realize that this isn't specifically something everybody does but being raised in the pop culture generation, i've found it difficult to shake the influence ......

i'm feeling a little more than guilty lately for not having alot of deep, personal insight in my blogs. granted, i've only blogged two times this month, but i guess i think i should be writing more. but sometimes, there just isn't much to write about ....saldy, i think some of that is caused by this period of spiritual staleness i'm going through right now. i feel strongly that it's just a phase, the ebb and flow of christianity. but i'm definately at low tide right now. i don't know what causes that. what causes that disconnect. i don't feel particularly angry about anything....nor do i feel particularly excited about anything....i guess it's just the dreaded "a" word --apathy....i feel nothing inside right now. blank i guess. if that's a feeling.....i don't know how long it's been like this. probably since i've been trying to figure out where my life leads. where i'm supposed to go from here. pray for me.....

two paragraphs is all you'll get out of me tonight. i'm going to play guitar. i hope the inspiration strikes.