this is important

i haven't updated this blog in a week and a half and i feel like i've been away from. i'd been updating almost every day, sometimes more than once, and then came the long break. that was partially because of a trip to chicago - which perhaps i'll chronicle in another entry - and partly because i was feeling like what i write on here is not that important.

but it is. what we're doing here, not on an individual basis, but as a group, is important. and when you read certain blogs, like the ones i read this week, you realize that everyone has something to share. and i know that sometimes we think it's going to be shallow or trivial, but the truth is, it's not. it's important, if for nothing else so that i, we, can know what you're feeling, going through, thinking about.

and i think that's just the enemy trying to banquish the freedom that can be granted through the written word. he knows that this tool is a coping mechanism for some of us. it's a place to start the healing; to reconcile those feelings of worthlessness, fear, regret and mold them into something beautifully cohesive.

so when we use big words, made-up words sometimes, or too many commas, that's ok too. it's all the same for the reader, i think. because hopefully when you sit down to read this, you let the words sink in and begin to connect with the writer. and that's why i think blogging is such a beautiful thing.

and even now, i fear that the words i write will reek of pretension, but i hope that's not the case. because i find that i want to be sincere, but the desire to be sincere doesn't necessarily lead to sincerity.

so to all of you on this journey, thank you from the bottom of my heart. thank you for laying the words on the (web)page so that i can start to understand what you're thinking, even if i can't possibly understand in full what you're saying. i will try.

the love's got to start somewhere....why not here?